I'm at a loss for where to begin

My son is 12 yrs old and was diagnosed a few years ago.  I cried after we got the diagnosis.  I didn't know where to begin.  I know this sounds familiar.  I wondered if it was my fault.  I blamed myself for a long time,  and then I decided it was time to suck it up.  I've spent the rest of my time trying to be a good mommy.  Along the way I realized I'm not really good at it.  My boyfriend more than makes up for my lack in that dept.  


I think I noticed he was different fairly young.  I was a stay at home mom with a son who was 3 yrs older than, we call him Critter, critter.   Things just seemed to be easier in some ways and harder in others.  He walked at 10 months old.  He was diagnosed with epilepsy at 4.  We put him on meds for that.  He knew his ABC's and could remember and read words by sight at 3.  Our oldest was able to type his name by the age of 4 on the computer.  By the age of 5 we took him off the meds because he having behavior problems he didn't have before we put him on them.  The doctor agreed.


We went through years of school telling people he was "just critter."  When we moved and he got into a different grade school.  And I thank god every day we changed schools.  The principal was at a parent teacher conference and told us to have him tested for asperger's.  If it wasn't for Mr.  Kelley we would probably have a lot more problems than we do now.


I find now that we know and can put a name to what's wrong with him.  Even more than ever I want to try to learn more.  Though that has been really harder than you would think.  There is so much information out there, but I've found that it is either hard for me to understand or really doesn't apply to our situation.  We are now trying to muddle through on our own.  I want to educate myself and others.  


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